This question (intrusive, critical thought) pops into my mind every now and then

and the answer has been and still is

little me

My dreads

My tooth gems

My tattoos

My hair wraps

My car

My lifestyle

I am doing it all for little me.

Sometimes as an adult, I feel a bit lost.

When there are no more demands on my time and energy, no obligations to meet, I don’t know what else I could possibly do or want.

So, rather than filling the void with consumerism like they want us to

I look inward.

My life at present is a product of going inward, remembering and coming home

Things that send a spark through me

These sparks aren’t coincidental

They are messages

Reminders

Even now, when I’m in my late 20s and these things might seem

silly

or

impractical

to whom? they light me up

I deserve to be lit up from within.

I giggle and giggle at the pure impracticality of my car

but it lights me up

It is totally justified

There is no partner to tell me this is impractical for the road ahead, no parents telling me I should be thinking about the future

I forewent all internal and external life expectations so I could light myself up from within

and I couldn’t be happier

Total inner peace

I stand strong in knowing I am no longer sacrificing my wants for my life to accommodate others

I hope this will inspire some to chase their dreams

xx