Hello, hello, hello!

Special hello to those of you who have been visiting this ghost town, wild western corner of the internet while I’ve been away!

I must apologize for my absence, the year of the snake has brought around some lessons, some transformations and some reflections.

Remember how I was going on the yacht like YOLO! (?). That was both a blessing and a lesson but a big lesson it was. Love my life so much ❤ I couldn’t have learned those lessons without such an appealing offer, because I was so staunchly not interested in men. LOVE MY ATTACHMENT WOUNDS! Hyperindependence is not the key guys.

I would officially like to opt out of self awareness plsthanku

So how the hell are ya?!
Where the hell are ya?!

I would love to hear from you, but as this is a one way blog I will keep talking, please leave me some messages below ❤

Where the farck have I been?!
Not much has changed, I’m still loyal to the Sunny region, BUUUUTTTT I’ve changed sides and now I’m a NSW girly!
I’m so close to the border it hurts, but New South Wales!!!! Far enough in that there are cute little differences, like how polite the police are with mobile speed cameras and flood signs :’)

In QLD they say ‘if it’s flooded, forget it ya fucken dipstick’ and they hide behind bushes with speed cameras.

In NSW, they say ‘do not continue if there’s water over road!!!!’ and ‘speed camera ahead!!! We are going to check your speed!!! Ok your speed has been checked thank you so much have a good day <3’
It’s an interesting thought food re Qld natives vs NSW natives… but I love how gentle NSW is and I think it’s great for this chapter of my journey (also really handy bc I can’t afford to lose any more demerit points LOL)

I digress.

Actually a bit has changed lol.

LIFE UPDATE

I got a van!! Woohoo!

I now have my own little precious home on wheels and I am so happy.

It’s been a journey and a half and while I’ve had the van for almost 4 months, I am just feel like I am at a starting point now.

There have been battery issues, gas stove issues, cabinetry issues. You name an issue? I’ve probably had it.

BUT the vehicle itself is in great condition (Toyota) and I needed a home and was kinda like, this is perfect I will take it. Now I know everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and I am still here.
Remember when I used to camp in the Jimny and life was simple and great? You think it would be great to upgrade to a van, but really, show me someone who hasn’t had van issues haha. But still we persist. What’s the alternative, get an apartment and full time work?

But oh my GOD I have a shower, I have a toilet (!!!!!), I have a bar fridge and I have a KING SIZE BED!!!

Now that I think about the perils of Jimny life HA I have it so good.

For now, I am taking some time to ground. I gave myself a little gift of retreat for the last month of the year and I’ve continued my stay for longer. I’m enjoying being in community and learning to live with others in harmony. I’ve had an Ayurvedic consultation and I’ve changed some aspects of my diet and lifestyle – being in this flow will help me stay grounded when I’m back on the road.

I know that living on the road has you in survival mode and prone to burn out, but it wasn’t until I stopped and had a base for 2 months that I realised how much I had been holding onto. There has been so many revelations and meltdowns, even physical release of emotional trauma. I got a massage where I was actually left with bruises (lol) but I am convinced a lot of stored emotion was released. And I haven’t had any trouble with my hips since.

I’ve created a support network of wise, mature and grounded women who I feel so blessed to be able to call on. This has been one of my biggest struggles and I am really, truly grateful for the women who have found their way into my life.

The caveat I have noticed, is while I feel young and reckless, I don’t get along so well with people in their early 20s. I’m more drawn to the late 30s to 50s and I guess it’s always been that way, but it’s becoming more prevalent now. I want to be fun and silly, but the young people actually don’t have their shit together or their values in order.

I am ready to hit the road and start my next adventure, but now I realise I would like to have a bit of stability. I might only last one or two months in one place, then go off gallivanting again, but it’s all about ~bALanCe~.

There is so much I can say about my time at the farm, but I would like to do a dedicated post once I have had a little bit more time to process things.

For now, I will say if you are interested in immersing in nature and following the spiritual path a bit further, definitely check out Krishna Village.

love and light X